thinking.

i so often feel like i should be trying harder. put more work into my relationship with God. because honestly,, I don't do much other than on Sundays and Wednesdays. Yeah, I pray a lot and I see lots of pictures of scripture and quotes,, but, I don't read the Bible much. I don't really dig in, focus, and try to become closer to Him daily.. which I definitely should. So maybe I say 'its hard, I get busy'. well, sometimes? yeah, that's the truth.. but usually, I spend much more time online or watching TV that I could be spending with God. so some might say, 'well you cant spend all your time, you have to relax and live a little' ... well, yeah.. but, then again, this world is so.. perishable. God and his word, will last forever. Eternity is all we need to be thinking about.. for ourselves, and others. it should be our focus, our goal. If I want to do one thing before I die, it is to lead someone to Christ. Its a dream.. or goal of mine. But honestly, I feel so far from being.. 'worthy' of it.. ( I guess worthy is the right word...) I feel so far from being capable of being able to help someone in that way. Of course, I can never do it without God.. I'll need so much help. And when I say 'lead someone to Christ' I hope you know, that I don't mean literally save them or anything.. but be able to tell them, witness to them, and pray with them to receive Christ in their heart! Anyway.. these are just some of my rambling thoughts of the night.. <3 <3
xxx Laura